I have not written in a while, and I really need to! A lot has happened and I'm not really sure quite how long it's been since I last posted. We bought a house a couple years ago and that has been a roller coaster ride in itself. It's great being a homeowner but very stressful when things come up that need to be done. The past owner's, I swear, did not believe in shelves in the closets! We have around 3-4 closets with shelving and they lived here for 30+ years lol. We have natural gas water heat and a wood boiler for heat in the winter time up here in Wisconsin, USA and just had the privilege of having to get the starter switch replaced in the wood boiler. Came up to around $240 with labor because ours is a dinosaur and they didn't have the switch on hand and had to travel to go get it. I don't think we should've gotten charged for it, but he was on "our clock" as they said. Whatever. We are experiencing a HUGE snow storm right now with the accumulations estimated to be around 6-8" all together from 12p today through 6a tomorrow morning.
The kids have been exceptionally sassy and mouthy today. My daughter M is already in bed because of her little attitude problem and my some T is not far behind. Just at my whits end today with them...gotta love snow days *rolls eyes*. So...a few weeks ago I had to have my husband rush me to the hospital because I was in such horrendous pain that I thought I was dying! It felt like a hot sharp poker was getting stabbed through my right ovary all the way through to my back....They didn't find anything, but I'm thinking it was another cyst that burst...worst...pain...ever!
So on to the diet and exercise thing....or what I'm trying to get back in to. So I gained ALL that weight back that I worked oh so hard to lose for those grueling 2 1/2 years. Really bummed about that and trying to get back on track is posing to be extremely difficult. Why is that? When you're under so much stress for so long because of having to work, you're in the process of home ownership, and the crazy schedules of your kids and husband....why is it so hard to find the gusto and motivation you had before? Is it the feeling of defeat? Fear that you could work that hard again and be thrown more of life's curveballs and end up in the same situation again? What?! I believe it's just a mixture of everything bad and letting the voice in my head get the best of me. The stress and anxiety of starting over and it taking another 2 years (at least) to get back to where you want to be. The knowing of how absolutely hard it is to cut back on the things that comfort you in times of stress, even when you know for a fact they are completely wrong for you and you will not use them in moderation. Hi, I'm Catherine and I'm a stress/boredom/anxiety/just because I can snacker! I have been doing okay as far as the exercise...mostly consistent, but need to get all the way consistent.
I started running 3x a week on the treadmill we have here at home and doing weight training. I have missed my weights and the treadmill. Never used to like running, but it's just so freeing and cannot wait until I can pound the pavement outside! T has asked if he can workout with me...is it bad if I don't want him down in the basement with me? I mean, it's really the only true ME time I get! Where I can just put the focus on me for a 30min- 1hr a day. I CRAVE it! I'm hoping blogging will get me through my boredom and anxiety when my husband isn't here so I don't snack. That's when I have my biggest issues still is when he isn't here and after the kids go to bed. I should just go right downstairs and workout instead of sitting here, but I try and wait until I know the kids are sleeping or at least mostly there.
I am working again now after taking 2015 off to finish up school stuff. I am a part time cashier at the local Dollar Tree and it is fun and keeps me busy for 5 hours 3-4 times a week while the kids are in school. I love the team I have and the managers that work there. I feel good about myself when I'm working and not just sitting here wondering what to clean next, or what to do with myself if there's nothing to do....and not snack when I'm not even hungry. I get one break since I only work 5hrs and it's only 11min....I go back and scarf down the healthy vegetarian meal I brought for the day put my feet up for a few minutes and go back to work....I love it! And it makes me eat healthy! Which is an added bonus. Well, I'm off to get T started in the shower before he goes to bed. Night Blogger world!
